Being 'me'

"You will never understand what I am going through", rantered my ever so painful friend. I have always found rantering friends in different baffling situations but this sentence always peeps out once you offer condolence. So instead of asking you to step into my very big shoes(USA 11), I let you understand me.
I am an average looking guy, 6 ft. tall, good lean physique, and I wear big shoes so it is not easy to step in.
I love being famous, in demand, but this way you tend to be repulsive. I am somewhat in demand, in college, and this does give my friends an alluring chance to pull my leg(all have their legs pulled, 'reasons'.... are not that important). I am kind of good at somethings, speaking for instance, which I can manage for hours without a drop of sweat or hint of sore throat. This speaking quality does manifest nicely on stage and in group ventures but it does tend to irritate people at times and they end up saying,"Yaar yeh aadmi apne aap ko hamesha stage pe samajhta hai",(statement courtesy-Arpit saraf,one of my friend).
I am Abhishek Bhatia and I am not a 'professional'. I couldn't understand why Sagar(another of my friend) termed me so. Being practical doesn't make you professional, at least not when your realism does have credibility. Since this turns into a leg pulling material, Suresh and Arpit tend to join him. I hope they don't think it this way. I don't have this figured out but I have been emotional at few moments in life so Mr. Sagar try take another 'take' at me.
"You are biased among friends",it came from a few mouths, most important of all being my room partner, Rajat. I despised this allegation the most, but perhaps it was true, though slightly. I believe that preferences(biasing sounds amiss) do arise in friendship and its not wrong until it turns into over biasing. Frankly I did try to change and perhaps it must have been notified.
I know I am lousy, overhyped, owner of self subdued zeal, but I am trying to go smooth, trying to do good, trying to make everything fall in place. I hope 'being me' didn't irritate you. I am Abhishek Bhatia and I am.....still trying to understand......

Straight from the heart

She called again..."why she always keep coming back",reciprocated my mind, may be that's my perception. She was 'just' a friend, that just was unjust.....i wanted it to be more, much the same way all men do.But i couldn't utter a word, of course not when she was in frame.....But i was cool with it, since i had a great quality that men have-it is all handled and its all cool. I am single and i am 'cool' about it.
Perhaps I also featured in one of the probable list made by our gang mates,which enlisted all of us who will remain single till marriage knocks them. These lists somehow manage to find me, it did once in school too. They know me better, better than i thought but still a trifle away from my actual being. I must be sounding random but its all from the heart. Hey! friends you all are awesome and the guys who have just found cure to their so called solitude (females of course), I AM JEALOUS.....lol.